My Commitment Issue

Book one: first experience

               

 She was 15 when she had the first encounter with love. She thought that love will never strike her heart as she was nobody. She is a kind of girl that never feels herself pretty. So loving someone is something impossible to her. Everything happens when she started to be friend with a boy in her class. His name was Thaqif. She tries to be a very good friend to him. At first, she has no feeling of love towards him. But after time passes, she felt something when he speaks to her. He also gives her a certain hint that result her heart to thump tremendously. She can still remember the day that Thaqif asked her to sit with him in the school library. She can still remember how her classmates looked at them with a very confuse look. She also can still remember how he looked at her until her face was all blushing red. That day, her heart was struck by love. She started to love him.  She felt that he love her too. She really wanted to believe this. She wanted to be loved by him. Thaqif was everything to her at that moment. He gives her the strength, the encouragement to go to school every day. He will sing at her desk every day. She will laugh out loud as she thinks everything that he had done were so funny. One day, at the last day of school, he told her. They had to break up. She totally shock with the thing that he said. She asks her why. He doesn’t want to tell her at first. But he told her anyway. He had written her a card. But his mom had found out about his relationship with her. His mom scolds him. So that why he make a decision to broke up with her. That night, she cried herself to sleep.